Dear Friends and Colleagues,
My musings of yesterday elicited a lot of warmth and friendship to which I am deeply grateful, yet many thoughts were provoked which, it is clear to me, I need to clarify more of, in terms of what I do and the conclusions that I have come to.
First, as some of you have pointed out, there is much more to longevity and wellness than just eating right. I really try to practice what I preach, and I encourage my patients to daily address six aspects of their lives: what, how the amounts and when they eat, proper hydration, proper breathing, gentle stretching exercises, sleep in the right amount and at the right time, and nourishing the soul and mind with joyful, expanding activities (for me as a Jew that means learning Torah, particularly Chasidus). I don't want to go into details here as to the specifics of these activities, but would be glad to answer any questions that you have concerning them.
Second, though I don't wish upon any of you the loss of a loved one, it's very important not to project what you "think" I feel or need when relating to me, or anyone else for that matter. I want to share with you the following story which illustrates this point: A soon to be five year old's parents asked him what he wanted for his birthday. Without hesitation he answered, "A bike!" So came along his birthday, and after the party, his parents excitedly told him to close his eyes as they walked him down the hall to his bedroom where they would bring him to his birthday present. He opened his eyes and lo and behold, there in front of his was...A racing car bed set! They were all excited, but he was crushed. They just didn't get it: We must always remember that bestowing kindness is predicated on having the sensitivity to give what the recipient wants and needs, not what the bestower projects that he needs. Many people have come up to me and have related to me solemnly, telling me how sorry they are about my loss. I've had close friends and relative who have actually not called me at all, or have delayed calling me because, as they confessed, they just didn't know what to say. Though I can't speak for anyone else, and as I said, I don't wish my experience on anyone else, I will tell you this: for someone so raw as I still am, to act solemnly around me brings me down and makes me feel depressed. That's the wrong thing to do. The most important thing for me is to connect. I feel enormously blessed to have had my Chana Fayge for 35 years, and I feel comforted and aware of her loving protection constantly. I really feel that she and the many holy people I have connected with, alive or eternal, are looking out for me, and that makes me enormously happy and grateful. And, as I said, I keep VERY busy.
Now to wheat grass juice and my nutrition in general: Indeed, as some of you have pointed out wheatgrass juice is energetically cold, and for someone like me, who tends to be Yang vacuous, integrating wheatgrass juice certainly requires more of an explanation.
First, though, I must make several comments relative to the above: One, upon reflection I would add two more major contributing major factors to aging and death:
Particularly for men, who by our very nature are physically, emotionally and spiritually more Yang than women, a third major factor contributing to aging and death must be the increasing inability to warm the Yang. This can be seen in many ways. Biochemistry clearly has noted, for example, lower levels of androgens in the aging male population. This is just one of many examples.
A fourth major contributing factor to aging and death is conflict and discord. This should not be confused with stimulation or competition. Rebbe Nachman of Breslov notes an amazing phenomenon, that there is no such thing as "neutrality," whether it be internationally, interpersonally or internally. The concept of detente or peaceful coexistance is a lie. There can be only conflict or harmony. Now that harmony can be tense complex and multi-faceted, but if must based upon trust and integrity. Otherwise it is disingenuous, dishonest and doomed to failure. The great author, systems theorist, inventor and futurist, Buckminster Fuller coined the term "Tensegrity" (combining the words tension and integrity) to describe this very idea. And this concept applies to all relationships, which flourish when there is dynamic energy and interaction. (I work a lot with married couples, and as with Chana and myself, we each grew enormously because of the dynamic energy and trust that we worked on and developed.) The Jewish sages tell us that the word for peace is the same word as perfection, and the definition thereof, is when two opposites are made to work together, harmoniously complementing each other. The same applies internally. What is the result of unresolved conflict that leads to discord? irritation and inflammation. This can show itself on many levels, not just physically. And when it does the result can be autoimmune disease, cancer, deterioration and death, and the four cardinal signs of inflammation: redness, pain, heat and swelling are all manifestations of this unresolved conflict in the body. More than two hundred years ago, Rebbe Nachman in the most brilliant macro and very non-Western perspective recognized that internal conflict of the body's organs, systems and structures is the root cause illness.
One other observation that I have noted, is the shocking lack of purpose and awareness in general that I have noticed with students of Chinese medicine and natural healing in the way they eat. It was astonishing to me as I attended both masters and doctoral programs to see the junk food that these future doctors, leaders and teachers of the sick were themselves ingesting. Now in retrospect, a little bit older wiser and more tolerant, I understand why--and I can explain by presenting you with the following image: imagine a cone. at the bottom it's wide and the higher it goes the narrower it gets. This cone really reflects what we can get away with in terms of what and how we eat. When we are in our 20's most of us have the latitude to eat pretty much what we want without consequence. In our 30's a little less so, in our 40's a little less so. Once we hit our 50's we had better wake up, because eating wrongly, even if we've eaten that way our whole lives will begin to cause us pain, suffering and illness. And this latitude gets narrower and narrower as we age. That's the down side. But the good news is, if you DON'T cheat. If you train yourself to eat ALWAYS in a manner in which you listen to your body and put yourself in touch with your body, not eating what you, specifically shouldn't (of course also following the recommendations in the 2nd paragraph above) I believe that you can live happily and healthily well past 110. The holy Jewish sages, (Maimonides and others) by the way, tell us, that in the early days of mankind, when lifespans were enormously long, some longer than 900 years, not everyone lived such long lives. Only the select people mentioned in Genesis lived long, and specifically because of how they lived, ate, breathed and conducted themselves. For us as we age, it's important that we think less about the pleasure that we give ourselves and more about the pleasure that we give others, our environment, and our Creator.
Now to wheatgrass juice and me: So if I, as a 61 year old male also have to concern myself with my Yang, (as well as inheriting a weak digestive tract from my mother and my father's father) how can I ingest and benefit from something as cold as wheatgrass juice? (By the way, for those of you who are not familiar, at least here in LA, wheat grass juice is inexpensive and readily available. Virtually every health food store in my area has a wheat grass juicer. They grow it on trays, cut it with a scissors while wearing disposable gloves, and juice it with a special juicer used only for wheat grass, so there is no issue with kashrus. Generally the cost is somewhere around $2.00 for the first ounce, and $1.00 for each additional ounce. I buy 3 ounces at a time spending under $10 per week.)
The answer is that daily, three times a day, I take a number of Chinese herbal formulas in pill form, as well as drinking thrice daily, home-made room temperature green smoothies (to which I add a spritz of Vietnamese cinnamon and ginger powder). Again, I've grown to know my body quite well, knowing what I need, as well as how much of each medicine I need, and as such have developed a protocol (doses and elements of which I vary slightly based upon how I feel each day) which addresses the following issues: mildly nourishing The Kidneys while also warming, nourishing and harmonizing the Spleen and stomach Yang and Qi, draining dampness and dispelling cold. Regulating the Middle Jiao Qi, eliminating food stagnation, and mildly moving the Liver Qi, and finally, mildly moving the blood, and dissolving and dissipating phlegm and nodules, softening hardness. Though this may sound overwhelming, it is important to know that this is for me, and though elements may apply to someone else, we all need to look within, train ourselves to filter out all the noise and distraction that pollutes our lives, fine-tune our receivers and become better listeners.
A practice that I engage in daily is to go to a quiet and natural place, and literally just talk, like a child talking to a loving parent or as one friend to another. I start off by reviewing the past day, what I've done, even small things that I regret and could have done differently, articulating my regret and resolving to make the next day better. Then I say thank you for the enormous blessings that I have in my life, again out loud, and again, even for little things, because they too matter! Finally, I acknowledge that I'm not so great, I don't really deserve anything that I've been given, but nonetheless, You, my Father, my Friend and my Lover, you are so good to me. And if you could maybe give me such and such that I don't have, I could really serve you better.
In terms of Mankind's ever-longing search for longevity, for the fountain of youth we must view this search with the right perspective. This is a wonderful world in which we live. This is the only world in which we can better ourselves and those that come into our sphere of influence by our actions. Our lives must be used to unselfishly love, give and expand ourselves, until we have truly completed what we were brought into this world for, our soul correction. Perhaps there are those who can influence themselves, others and the world by going into a monastery, meditating and peacefully harmonizing themselves internally. But this is not the Jewish way. The Jewish way of longevity is to interact, to actively heal and to resolve conflict while maintaining individuality and integrity, not just getting along. It is the antithesis or being boring!
I have a lot yet to do, and G-d willing I hope to be around for quite some time. I look forward to sharing the ride together with you!
Friday, November 29, 2013
Thursday, November 28, 2013
Thoughts of Aging and What to Do About It.
Dear friends and colleagues,
As you may know, I lost the love of my life, my precious Chana Fayge a little over 2 months ago. Thank G-d I've kept very busy with changes that I've made in my life (to help elevate her soul) and with my practice. We were blessed to know each other exactly 35 years, almost to the day.
I've also thought a lot about the 23 years that she suffered, what I did, and what I could have done.
I want to share with you what I think is a remarkable observation that I have made, and which has changed my life. Follow me carefully if you will: As any student of Chinese medical theory and gerontology will tell you, to the best of my limited knowledge as a clinician, there are essentially two prevailing schools of thought as to what precipitates aging and the debilitation that accompanies it: Blood Stasis and Yin Vacuity. I would contend that they really are two manifestations of the same phenomenon. Think about hemoglobin: Hemoglobin is the iron containing and oxygen/Co2 transporting protein constituent of the red blood. Amazingly hemoglobin makes up 97% of the dry weight of erythrocytes and over 1/3 of the total weight (counting H2O). Remember also, that we humans are over 2/3 water. Now from a Western Biomedical perspective, there are any number of factors that we know contribute to aging, but certainly three such common contributing factors are malnutrition/malabsorption, dehydration and oxygen deprivation. These obviously have a major impact on the Blood and Yin, both in terms of volume and motility.
So with that background in mind, I began to think: what can one do differently to nutritionally nourish the Yin and move the Blood. Or to state it differently, what can one do to promote the production of healthy hemoglobin?
Then I remembered reading in Victoria Boutenko's book, "Green for Life" that chlorophyll is essentially an analog of hemoglobin, meaning that they're almost identical chemically. And what food substance is the most concentrated form of chlorophyll? Wheat grass juice.
So I started drinking wheat grass juice, (and as a matter of fact, a half a dropper of wheat grass juice was the last food that Chana ingested before her passing) but there was a problem. I was getting a little headachy and nauseous having it, and it tended to give me a little diarrhea. I read that this is a typical Herxheimer die-off reaction, but I didn't buy that entirely. Rather, I recalled yet one more interesting phenomenon of biochemistry: the Goldilocks principle when administering any medicinal substance: Too little will be ineffective, and too much will illicit a toxic reaction. The dose has to be "just right!"
So instead of taking small amounts, one or two ounces at a time, I started experimenting with much smaller doses: one teaspoon with each meal, and with each green smoothie (which I make myself), essentially ingesting 6 teaspoons or one ounce per day. (BTW, wheat grass juice is very volatile, must be refrigerated and should be used up within 3 days).
The result is that I have no side effects whatsoever, and I feel like I have a new lease on life: I have remarkable energy, I am clear-minded and my vision has improved. I am very aware of my intestinal motility (it's actually a pleasant sensation) and my elimination is efficient but not loose at all. It's just very simply, a wonderful sense of feeling vibrant and alive, not slowing down and getting old.
Of course this is all anecdotal, but I wanted to share it with you for your consideration.
Friday, November 15, 2013
"Key" l'olam chasdo--For His kindness is endless
For some unknown reason, when I was on the way to LAX (Los Angeles International Airport) bringing my wife to her final resting place on Har Hazeisim, I brought along my keys, including one of my two electronic car keys. Unfortunately, before I left Israel, I couldn't find my keys, but suspected that they fell behind a bookshelf in my grandchildren's room. I didn't really think about them much until last week, but when I mentioned it to my son about a week about, he started looking for them, found them 2 days ago, and said that he would mail them to me.
Now yesteday afternoon., after a day of patients, I came home, had something to eat, walked down the alley to shul for mincha, walked a few blocks to do two errands and then came home to go to my car to run a few errands for Shabbos. Though I did have my keys, and assumed that I also had my electronic car key, my Prius "did not detect" the presence of the key, so it obviously fell off. Anyway, I retraced my steps first to shul, then to the fish store, then to the bank. No key. I did some hisbodedus, happy that Hashem had given my this test and wondering what he was trying to teach me. I said the special segula to find a lost object, "Amar Reb Binyomin..." and put aside tzedoko as a redemption, but. still no key. Then I remembered that my son was mailing me my other set of keys, and I realized that maybe Tatty (Dad) is telling me that I don't need to drive for a few days. Who knows what would happen? Also, it was a reminder of one of the 10 principles of Jewish medicine: He always creates the cure before the illness.
I might yet find them, I dunno. But whatever happens I know that Tatty gives me exactly what I need, and even in adversity, it could have been worse. I find it compelling that my son and I just happened to speak of my keys earlier in the week and that the set in Israel were found, just before I lost my car key here.
This morning, I realized when I woke up that it would be quite far for me to walk to Beis Yehuda (the shul where I have been davening for the last month each morning) so what should I do? Then I remembered that when I came back from Israel, for the first two weeks I had walked each morning the 3 blocks to daven at the Mesivta, Rabbi Nechemia Langer's Yeshiva high school for some of the very best boys who had graduated from the Chasidishe Cheder. The davening there is slow, intense, and enthusiastic. They also begin davening an hour earlier, than where I had been davening. I again realized, that Hashem was talking to me, guiding me and directing me. He knew that when I davened at Bais Yehuda, I was arriving late for my first patient. He knew that my neshama needs to connect with a fiery and thoughtful davening rather than a rushed and mechanical davening which I wasn't keeping up with anyway. So what did he do? He woke me up by "guiding me" to lose my "key," and to remember my other "Key:" Key l'olam chasdo!
Friday, May 31, 2013
My continuing Tikkun from Uman--8 months later
Those of you who follow my blog will recall that last September I had the life-changing opportunity to spend Rosh Hashana with Rebbe Nachman in Uman.
http://traditionaljewishmedicine.blogspot.com/2012/09/an-uman-remembrance-300-am-friday.html
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As I reflect on the remarkable events that I am about to share with you, I realize now that this story actually begins four and a half months earlier, right after Lag Ba'omer.
B"H, a year ago, Lag Ba'omer, I merited to come again to Israel to participate in the third birthday celebration of my son Yechiel's second son, Dovid Matisyahu, by Rabi Shimon Bar Yochai in Meron. It so happened, that on the way to Israel, I read a remarkable book entitled, "Escape From India," which details the larger than life story of an unfortunate fellow who is caught with drugs in the Mumbai airport, the living hell of his imprisonment as well as his transformation in prison as a true Baal Teshuva (penitent) and his remarkable and quite supernatural escape from the inescapable, due to the pidyon nefesh (payment of ransom for his soul) that was accomplished through the efforts of a great Tzadik in Israel. (This idea that when one suffers, particularly in the case of illness, a redemption is necessary to sweeten and mitigate any harsh Heavenly judgment, is addressed by Rebbe Nachman in Likutei Moharan Part II, lesson 3).
Quite intrigued by this concept of pidyon nefesh, when I arrived in Israel, I asked my son Yechiel if he knew who this tzadik was who accomplished this pidyon, and would I be able to meet him to perhaps accomplish a pidyon for my wife Chana--to which he smiled. When I asked him why he was smiling, he told me that his good friend was the brother of the chief gabbai (attendant) of the tzadik, Rav Eliezer Berland, and he would see what he could do, in the short time that I would be in Israel.
Truly guided by Hashem, doors opened seemingly by magic, and Monday after Lag Ba'omer, we were told to bring $1000 for the pidyon, and come to an address in Betar at a certain time to see Rav Berland. Upon coming into his room, Rav Berland took the pidyon, but instead of speaking of Chana or giving me instructions, immediately gave me a number of vials of medicines, and commented very matter of fact but in his usual enthusiastic way, "take these medicines for your liver and you'll be just fine. You see, when the blood vessels or the liver backs up, serious illness results. Notice how your veins are protruding. This is because your liver is not working as it should. But take the medicine and you'll be fine." With that, his gabayim (attendants) began to scoot us out of the room. "But wait,"
I said. "What about my wife and her seizures? That's the reason why we came!" To which Rav Berland took out four more medicines, quickly gave me specific instructions for her to take the medicines, and wished her a complete recovery. Like a whirlwind, we left in a daze. (I will say, by the way, that Chana is clearly better since taking Rav Berland's medicines, with her seizures now occurring, much, much less frequently than they had been for years previously.)
But what about me and what about my liver? I never thought twice about it except that interestingly, 8 years earlier, while being worked on during a CranioSacral seminar, a therapist remarked that he had never seen a liver so hard and so stuck.
I should also note that while waiting in Rav Berland's entry room, we struck up a conversation with a wonderful fellow who happened to be the grandson of one of the great Breslov tzadikim of the previous generation, Harav Shmuel Shapiro, ZT"L. Rav Yehuda Tzvi Shapiro mentioned that the previous week, the Spinker Rebbe from Brooklyn, happened to come to see Rav Berland. The Spinker commented to him that Rav Berland's medicine was nothing but a cloak, and the real power of the medicine came from combinations, permutations and meditations on Hashem's holy names that Rav Berland "injected" into the medicines!
Anyway, I took Rav Berland's medicine and really felt much clearer and stronger than before, but as I didn't change anything in my lifestyle, slowly, I returned to how things were before.
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As I reflect on the remarkable events that I am about to share with you, I realize now that this story actually begins four and a half months earlier, right after Lag Ba'omer.
B"H, a year ago, Lag Ba'omer, I merited to come again to Israel to participate in the third birthday celebration of my son Yechiel's second son, Dovid Matisyahu, by Rabi Shimon Bar Yochai in Meron. It so happened, that on the way to Israel, I read a remarkable book entitled, "Escape From India," which details the larger than life story of an unfortunate fellow who is caught with drugs in the Mumbai airport, the living hell of his imprisonment as well as his transformation in prison as a true Baal Teshuva (penitent) and his remarkable and quite supernatural escape from the inescapable, due to the pidyon nefesh (payment of ransom for his soul) that was accomplished through the efforts of a great Tzadik in Israel. (This idea that when one suffers, particularly in the case of illness, a redemption is necessary to sweeten and mitigate any harsh Heavenly judgment, is addressed by Rebbe Nachman in Likutei Moharan Part II, lesson 3).
Quite intrigued by this concept of pidyon nefesh, when I arrived in Israel, I asked my son Yechiel if he knew who this tzadik was who accomplished this pidyon, and would I be able to meet him to perhaps accomplish a pidyon for my wife Chana--to which he smiled. When I asked him why he was smiling, he told me that his good friend was the brother of the chief gabbai (attendant) of the tzadik, Rav Eliezer Berland, and he would see what he could do, in the short time that I would be in Israel.
Truly guided by Hashem, doors opened seemingly by magic, and Monday after Lag Ba'omer, we were told to bring $1000 for the pidyon, and come to an address in Betar at a certain time to see Rav Berland. Upon coming into his room, Rav Berland took the pidyon, but instead of speaking of Chana or giving me instructions, immediately gave me a number of vials of medicines, and commented very matter of fact but in his usual enthusiastic way, "take these medicines for your liver and you'll be just fine. You see, when the blood vessels or the liver backs up, serious illness results. Notice how your veins are protruding. This is because your liver is not working as it should. But take the medicine and you'll be fine." With that, his gabayim (attendants) began to scoot us out of the room. "But wait,"
I said. "What about my wife and her seizures? That's the reason why we came!" To which Rav Berland took out four more medicines, quickly gave me specific instructions for her to take the medicines, and wished her a complete recovery. Like a whirlwind, we left in a daze. (I will say, by the way, that Chana is clearly better since taking Rav Berland's medicines, with her seizures now occurring, much, much less frequently than they had been for years previously.)
But what about me and what about my liver? I never thought twice about it except that interestingly, 8 years earlier, while being worked on during a CranioSacral seminar, a therapist remarked that he had never seen a liver so hard and so stuck.
I should also note that while waiting in Rav Berland's entry room, we struck up a conversation with a wonderful fellow who happened to be the grandson of one of the great Breslov tzadikim of the previous generation, Harav Shmuel Shapiro, ZT"L. Rav Yehuda Tzvi Shapiro mentioned that the previous week, the Spinker Rebbe from Brooklyn, happened to come to see Rav Berland. The Spinker commented to him that Rav Berland's medicine was nothing but a cloak, and the real power of the medicine came from combinations, permutations and meditations on Hashem's holy names that Rav Berland "injected" into the medicines!
Anyway, I took Rav Berland's medicine and really felt much clearer and stronger than before, but as I didn't change anything in my lifestyle, slowly, I returned to how things were before.
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Fast forward again, to Erev Rosh Hashana in Uman
Fast forward again, to Erev Rosh Hashana in Uman
As I mentioned, I had the privilege of connecting with and treating a great tzaddik while there, as well as during a subsequent visit to Eretz Yisrael.
(When I saw the tzaddik some three months ago I asked him for a blessing for a safe and easy birth for my daughter in law, whose due date was June 6, and mentioned in passing that I would be coming to Eretz Yisrael for Lag Ba'omer again. He immediately told me to change my ticket to be there for the bris mila. As such, I changed it for the latest possible date, arriving in Israel right before Shavuos, and staying for 2 weeks, which should have given enough time for me to be there for a simcha. But more on that later!)
(When I saw the tzaddik some three months ago I asked him for a blessing for a safe and easy birth for my daughter in law, whose due date was June 6, and mentioned in passing that I would be coming to Eretz Yisrael for Lag Ba'omer again. He immediately told me to change my ticket to be there for the bris mila. As such, I changed it for the latest possible date, arriving in Israel right before Shavuos, and staying for 2 weeks, which should have given enough time for me to be there for a simcha. But more on that later!)
As I left the Tzion, I suddenly realized that my only towel was missing. So back I went and from 2:15 till 2:30 am I scanned the benches and racks of the Uman mikvah, unsuccessfully, looking for my towel. But then, as I was about to leave, this huge Ukrainian guard, whose great-grandfather could easily have been one of the murderous Cossacks suddenly bellowed out, "Meester!" and pointed to me to come to him. As I approached I became aware that next to him was a blind 20 something chassid who needed help going to the mikvah, and rather than being put out, I was thrilled that I was able to help this young man, at 2:30 in the morning, to get undressed, shower, go down the steps into the mikvah, help him out, help him to get dressed and walk him back to the the guard who awaited him. This I thought was my payment, and that what would follow would be a year of new-found vigor. Little did I realize, though, that my Uman mikvah incident was just a small down payment.
We all have our quirks. Ever since my college days, I have always loved the seductive quiet of the night. I find that I think better and write better then. But this wonderful clear mindedness also causes me to lose track of time, and so, on a nightly basis, needing to finish whatever project I happen to be working on, I invariably find myself staying up late, sometimes very, very late: on an early night, until 2:30 am! How is someone able keep it up: Staying up so late, and then being able to function the next day, let alone going to minyan? Well, truth be told, I haven't always, and what I have been able to do I wouldn't have been able to were it not for the Chinese herbs and Qi Gong exercises that I essentially have used for the past decade to keep myself from collapsing.
One would think, as an intelligent person, that I would start to get it: My eyes have become much more tired and my vision less clear, my body in general, but my shoulders especially have become more achy, and my ribs have increasingly become more sore and tense. But instead of looking within and stopping, I have just kept going (Were it not for Shabbos, I certainly would have collapsed sooner!). That was until a month ago.
Finally Thursday morning, I arrived at Ben Gurion airport, rented a brand new Mazda, and headed straight to my children in Elad. I took my herbs, and then out of sheer exhaustion, collapsed, and slept all day. When I finally awoke, in the late afternoon, in addition to my stomach feeling queasy, the chills and my right leg being still quite red, though the swelling was significantly reduced, my lymph nodes were now swollen and in addition to all of the above, I now had lymphadenitis and sinusitis. So with the exception of Shabbos, most the next 4 days until Shavuos I spent in bed to the complete bewilderment of our little ones, ages 5, 3 3/4, and 2 1/2.
One small glimmer of light I would like to share with you in the midst of all this darkness: B"H, Erev Shabbos I was able to drag myself to mikvah, and then, to the delight of Shimmy and Dudy (Yechiel's first two boys: Shimon and Dovid Matisyahu), I drove them in my car to the Breslover Shteibel before Shabbos. And though I did drag myself to Shul Shabbos morning and again for Mincha/Shalosh Seudos, most of the time I was sitting with my head down on the table. After Shabbos, I was approached by one of the many holy Jews that daven at Breslov with Yechiel. A mekubal and a sofer (scribe) he gave me a holy Kamaiya (amulet) with many combinations and permutations of Hashem's holy names to wear, but to make sure to return it before I left Israel. I was also instructed to double wrap it in plastic and cover it to protect it from unholy influences. Interestingly, within a day after placing it in my pocket, the nose piece of my glasses broke. I don't think that this was just a coincidence. In retrospect, I truly believe that the Kamaiya also had a major influence in my recovery.
After Shabbos, though, I was back in bed where I pretty much remained, sweating, tossing and turning until Shavuos.
I really wanted to stay up all night Shavuous, and B"H, though my mind was foggy I did manage to go with my son, Yechiel, to the Breslover Shteibel to say the Tikkun Leil Shavuous. Around 3:30 am, Yechiel noticed that I was looking weak and dozing off, so he asked me if I'd like a cup of coffee. Mind you, I hadn't drunk coffee for well over 5 years, and though hesitant, (knowing that besides being a tonic and a stimulant, coffee is also a mild purgative and a diuretic) I agreed to a weak cup of coffee. Everything seemed OK for about a half hour, but then, as I went to the mikvah to immerse myself to connect the night to the day in purity, as I walked the 4 or so blocks to the mikvah horrible cramps got worse and worse until, by the time I reached the Mikvah, I was doubled over in pain desperately needing a bathroom. But this time, what came out was blood and pus mixed with stool--dysentery! Somehow, I managed to immerse and Hashem even provided me an unexpected shortcut back to Breslov (I mistakenly thought that Breslov was on Rechov Rabbi Akiva, and intuitively I followed that street which led me right to the shortcut--actually the Breslover steibel is on Rechov Hillel! Yet one more gesture of Hashem's amazing mercy!) I don't know how I did it, but I made it back to shul, davened shacharis at dawn and, doubled over in pain made it the 6 blocks back to Yechiel's apartment on Rechov Yehuda Hanasi. Arriving home, again, I took my herbs, went right to sleep, and woke up late afternoon, drenched in sweat and coughing spasmodically, bring up thick yellow phlegm, and almost aspirating my lungs from the intensity of the coughing. Pneumonia! Now, I could no longer lie down, for every time I would lie on my sides or back I would break into more spasmodic coughing, and so for the balance of the two weeks that I was in Israel, I slept sitting up on the living room couch, getting an average of 3 hours sleep a night, and a couple of more hours during the day. Yom tov Sheni (the 2nd day of the holiday celebrated by Jews living abroad) Friday and Shabbos, were spent pretty much in a daze, dozing on and off, and taking my herbs, and though I really tried to participate in the Shabbos meals, my appetite was poor.
I want to tell you two stories now: One from Rebbe Nachman and one that happened to me.
Rebbe Nachman begins his famous story of the Seven Beggars with the following introduction: "There once was a king who had an only son. The king wanted to give over his kingdom to his son during his lifetime. On the day of the coronation, the king made a great ball. Whenever the king makes a ball there is great rejoicing, but now, when the king was giving over the kingdom to his son during his lifetime, the rejoicing was immense. All the royal ministers, dukes, and officials were there and they rejoiced greatly at the feast. Everyone in the land was also pleased by this. It was a great historic event that the king was giving over his kingdom to his son during his lifetime, and there was great rejoicing. There were all sorts of entertainment at the ball, including bands, comedians and the like; everything to make people rejoice. When the rejoicing reached its peak the king stood up and said to his son: "I am an expert in astrology, and I see in the stars that you are destined to lose your kingdom. When you lose power be careful not to become depressed; you must remain joyful. If you are happy, then I will also be happy. But if you become sad, then I will still be happy--because you are no longer king. if you are not able to remain happy when you lose your royal power, then you are not fit to be a king. But if you remain happy, then I will be extremely happy."
Shortly after Lag Baomer, I was scheduled to see a patient on a Wednesday afternoon at 1:30 pm. As the patient hadn't yet arrived, I went to the hall outside of my office to get something. There, in front of me were two distinguished looking chasidic Jews who asked if I could give them a few minutes. I told them that it was impossible, as I had a patient arriving any moment for an appointment. During this interaction, suddenly the phone rang, and it was my patient running about 20 minutes late. There are no coincidences, right? Obviously, Hashem was guiding things and wanted me to welcome these guests, so I escorted them into my office and it turned out that they were the principal and spiritual guide of the Breslover Cheder in Jerusalem. Clearly, Rebbe Nachman was speaking to me again. Seeing the obvious Divine involvement, I arranged some connections for them, introducing them to members of the community, as well as Shabbos and a parlor meeting.
When they came to LA, they knew almost no one, but now, B"H, Breslov Yerushalayim had a toe-hold.
This set the stage for my trip to Israel: When they heard I was coming to Israel, they went out of their way to meet me at the airport (at 6 am!) and invited me to come see the Breslover Cheder as well as Rebbe Nachman's chair which was smuggled into Israel and reassembled there. Finally, Sunday afternoon, still doubled over in pain, Yechiel and I drove to Meah Shearim. Limping from our parked car on Rechov Shomrei Emunim to Breslov, the two blocks felt like ten miles. Someone seeing me might have thought that I was in my 80s! But like balm for the neshama (soul) we had the opportunity to view three classes in the Breslover Cheder. In each class, I was given a mesechta (tractate) of the mishnayos they were learning and told to choose an arbitrary perek (chapter) and mishna. To my surprise, in each class, in beautiful harmony, the boys would sing the words of the mishna flawlessly (and with complete understanding) to different Breslover niggunim. The intensity and love that was invested into their chinuch (education) was obvious.
After mincha which I davened next door, at Toldos Avrohom Yitzchok, I went back to the Breslover Bais Hamidrash, set up a chair and table, and sat in front of Rebbe Nachman's chair, saying vidui (confession). I was told that the great Lelover Rebbe, Reb Moshe Mordechai, used to daily come by and kiss the chair. Our sages tell us that objects merely used by Tzadikim a quality of holiness which the great can discern. Certainly, that would be the case with the very chair used by Rebbe Nachman, himself. Though different than the sensations that I felt in Uman, putting my head down in front of the Rebbe's chair, I certainly felt its impact.
Still very weak and very much in pain, we next drove to Gush Shmonim, to the Bais Hamidrash of the great mekubal and tzadik Rav Itche Meir Morganstern. Rav Morganstern has written extensively about the halachic ramifications of alternative medicine, and I was fortunately able to ask him a specific question about my practice. Those interested in finding out more should definitely purchase his annual voluminous text of issues and questions both in revealed and hidden aspects of the Torah entitled "Yam Hachochma".
From there, as it turned out, the great self-effacing Tzadik, Rav Nissan Dovid Kivak was making a bar mitzva for his grandson in Brachfeld (near Modi'in). A little background about Rav Kivak:(Unlike other prominent figures in the Breslov movement, very little has been written about Rav Kivak, so what follows is based upon my experiences or what I've heard from others. A native New Yorker, from what I understand, Rav Kivak learned in Yeshivos Tiferes Yerushalayim and Torah V'da'as, and received smicha (ordination) at age 16. Harav Moshe Feinstein was has mesader kiddushin. As a young man he was the chavrusa of the present Skverer Rebbe, Shlit"a. But drawn to the the writings of Rebbe Nachman and the charismatic leadership of Rav Eliezer Shlomo Schick, at age 19, Rav Kivak moved to Israel. Rav Schick recognized Rav Kivak's greatness, and groomed him to be his right-hand man, but for whatever reason, they had a falling out, and Rav Kivak quietly moved to the new community of Kiryat Belz in Jerusalem. As the story has it, as the Belzer Rebbe, shlit"a was building his magnificent community, he ran out of money and get extremely depressed. One of his Chasidim knew of Rav Kivak, and convinced the Rebbe to speak with him. In the Breslov tradition, Rav Kivak encouraged the Belzer to not give up, and it was this strengthening which provided the boost to allow the Belzer Rebbe to complete Kiryat Belz. Slowly and gradually Rav Kivak has develop quite a large following. My first experience with him was 5 or so years ago, on Rebbe Nachman's yahrtzeit. Quite in a state of ecstasy,my son Yechiel encouraged me to approach Rav Kivak to give him "Sholom," but warned me that he probably would not engage me in conversation, and that under no circumstances should I refer to him with any title of honor. To my surprise, Rav Kivak started asking me all about my medicine, and for a half hour, with people dancing all around, we engaged each other in conversation--until I made the mistake, when he asked me if I could treat back problems, of answering, "it would be my pleasure to treat the Rov"--to which he bolted away from me, screaming, "what's this talk about rabbis?" and that was it. Subsequent to that, on multiple occasions, I have attended his shiurim, which are magnificent, and reach straight to the heart or each listener. Rav Kivak as part of his presentation, actually makes fun of "Rebbes," mimicking their aristocratic and regal mores, promoting humility, honesty and optimism. Yet, on Rosh Hashana night, in Uman, well over an hour after davening was finished in the large Kloiz, Rav Kivak was still immersed in prayer, like nothing I'd ever seen before.
So now, at his grandson's bar mitzva, all of a sudden Rav Kivak called me over and had me sit next to him. After a while, he said, "let's go outside and talk," and for a good half hour, I gave over to him all that I had gone through since Uman. All the while he listened quietly. After I finished, in classic New York English, Rav Kivak told me, "Forget about it, man, and don't think about it any more. You've go so much! You've got Shabbos. You've got the Rebbe. You've got your beautiful family. Just forget about what happened and focus on all that you have. Be happy and grateful, and just move on." With that we returned upstairs and still in pain, but slightly less, I davened with Rav Kivak and his followers ma'ariv, finally arriving home at around 1:30 am.
The next day, Monday I woke up late, moving very slowly--coughing, weak, and very much still feeling under attack. I didn't have the time or strength to go to the Kosel (western wall), I had very much wanted to visit my elderly cousin who lived in the south, but I just didn't have the strength, but before I left, I knew that I needed to go to Meron and the shrine of Rabbi Shimon Bar Yochai, as well as to go to Tzfas, visit my granddaughter Rochel who was learning there, and go into the mikva of the Holy Arizal as well as daven by his and his rebbe the Ramak's graves. On the way, I intuitively thought it wise to add Yechiel as an additional driver on my rental car, a decision which turned out to be quite wise. But once we got to Tzfat, I just didn't have the strength to go down the stairs to the cemetery and the mikva, so Yechiel acted as my emissary After waiting for him, we proceeded to Meron.
Meron felt very different, and after Davening Ma'ariv by Rebbe Shimon, I put the need to put my head down, and close my eyes. I suddenly broke into a deep sweat, and again, heard that voice that I had heard originally in Uman which told me, "You can have it, but you have to pay the price!" This time though, the message was different: "All that you suffered until now is your tikkun. You've learned your lesson, and now you will get better and will have a healthy and vigorous life. But don't repeat the mistakes of your last 40 years. Don't stay up so late. You know what you've done, and you know that each aveira creates a prosecuting, malevolent angel. I've waited patiently for you to get it, but you haven't gotten it. So now they are cleansing you, and if you're smart, that will be the end of your suffering. But be happy and know that this is for your benefit. The proof will be that no one in your family will get sick despite all the coughing, and phlegm and sickness. This is your personal tikkun." So I left Rabbi Shimon, and had much to think about as I drove home.
The next day with my daughter in law, Rivka, still not having given birth, I took the family to Ikea in Natanya, where they had a lovely amusement park inside the store which the boys loved. At Ikea, the very expectant mom, was able to buy all kinds of different odds and ends to help feather her nest in anticipation of the coming event.
It was wise indeed, that I added Yechiel as an additional driver, and the wisdom become more apparent with the days. I don't think I would have made my flight, had he not driven me, but I did. Again, I thought that I had everything well planned out: and I flew business class direct from Berlin to LA. But what a flight--the whole 16 hours for the most part, I was coughing, hacking and miserable, able to sleep very little.
Ten hours after arriving home in LA, Yechiel called to tell me that they were on the way to Maayonei Hayeshua hospital in Bnei Brak, and two hours later he again called me to daven as the labor was seemingly stuck. As I have done before, I enlisted the help of the Ramak who speaks about Bina giving birth to Tiferes, but the importance of involving Chesed to transform any harsh Judgments (Gevura). B"H within 15 minutes, I again received the wonderful news that we had a new baby boy!
Over the next week, the car was indispensable, allowing Rivka to comfortably get to the hospital, for Yechiel to buy all the necessities for the Shalom Zocher in Bnei Brak by the Biala Rebbe, Shlit"a, to bring Rivka home with their new package, and of course to plan the bris.
B"H I was able to participate at the bris nonetheless, as my granddaughter Rochel, my grandson Dovid and my daughter Ariella all have I-phones. Preparing myself, I learned the passages from the Zohar, just as if I were there, and orally invited Eliyahu Hanavi (the Prophet Elijah), the angel of the Bris to join us in Elad, as well as here in Southern California to heal all the members of our family. (Our wonderful assistant, Connie Wiggins, tells me that though Chana Slept through the Bris, nonetheless, this morning, my Chana seemed different, like she'd gone through some kind of medical procedure!
At 2:30 in the morning, not knowing even if the mikvah had water in it, I went to the shul down the alley from me. Not only was the mikvah full, but the water was warm and inviting, and I felt my prayers connected on high with each immersion, as I invited the many tzadikim who I had connected with to join us for the bris.
The bris began a little after 3:00 am, and Rav Morganstern was the Sandek (godfather), who held the baby, gave the blessings and announced the name. Our new grandson's name? Aharon Nosson, named for two great self-effacing tzadikim: Rav Aharon Strashelye, the main student of the Baal Hatanya (the Alter Rebbe of Chabad), and, of course, Rav Nosson of Breslov.
The bris took place Thursday afternoon in Israel (Early Friday morning here) and now, Motzei Shabbos, I feel like a different person. I absolutely believe that Eliyahu Hanavi was present at the bris as well as here, at 321 1/2 N. Genesee, in LA. I am much, much better now. I feel that the illness is about 90% gone and I'm close to 80% back to my full strength. During this process I lost 16 lbs, but over Shabbos, gained back two lbs and now weigh what I did when I graduated high school. But more importantly, my neshama (soul) feel clean. Though I was too weak and tired to go to Shul this morning, I went for Mincha this afternoon, and merited to go to Mikvah before Davening, as well as getting an aliya and making a misheberach (a blessing) for my daughter-in-law Rivka as well as for Aharon Nosson that they should have speedy and complete healings. (Our sages tell us that the third day after a bris is the most difficult, so the timing was definitely opportune).
When I went to Israel I thought that I knew what Malchus (Royalty) was, but what I really learned and integrated is that Malchus is not about me or my plans, but rather it is about feeling the absolute joy of being the King's son, constantly being honest with myself and judging myself carefully each day, seeing the good in all that befalls me, and knowing that everything that happens to me is a loving gift and reminder of what I need to know and reflect on, and even more importantly, what I need to do.
B"H, I continue to get stronger. This amazing experience has enabled me to better understand the Chinese concepts of Wei Qi (superficial or defensive vitality) and Ying Qi (nutritive vitality). I find that I now feel stronger than I have in many, maybe perhaps 30 years, and for the most part, that which attacked me is for the most part gone. Nonetheless, the process of filling in the vacuity, and strengthening me from within I see as a much slower process. During this process, when I have stayed up later, I've felt it quite dramatically the next day. Yet, when I've acted prudently, I've felt remarkably stronger from deep inside. Saturday evening, June 8, I celebrated a Seudas Hoda'ah (meal of Thanksgiving), to express my gratitude to Hashem and the tzadikim for giving me a second chance to live. It was especially auspicious in that it also coincided with Seudas Malava Malka (The mystical meal of King David escorting out Shabbos) as well as a Seudas Rosh Chodesh (A meal honoring the beginning of the Lunar month of Tamuz, my birthday month 61 years ago).
With Hashem's help, I pray that I have the wisdom to have learned from my mistakes, and make the most of this second chance.
Wednesday, April 24, 2013
Epilepsy, Electricity and Complementary Medicine
My dear wife of 34 years, Chana, has been suffering from seizures for 23 of them. I believe that each
seizure is the body's attempt to discharge electricity, often, unsuccessfully. Imagine if you will, a seizure every 25 days or so, followed within the next few days, by 5-8 post-ictal seizures, for more than 20 years. Do the math, and you will realize that the number of seizures that she has endured numbers well over 1000! Besides the obvious damage they have done, one other consequence has been a rawness, and an inability to concentrate. How could you expect someone who harbors and is distracted by so much electricity, to be able to focus, concentrate or engage in any relaxation technique? The cumulative sequelae of the seizures have just been too overwhelming for her to engage in any active relaxation--at least until recently.
I am pleased to report, though, that now, for the first time over an extended period of time, the seizures are becoming less frequent, and I am very hopeful that slowly and gradually she will be able to discharge the electricity and heal.
Anecdotally, I will tell you that some years ago, she was seen by late Dr. John Upledger, the developer of CranioSacral therapy. An interesting therapy that Dr. Upledger suggested was she daily, for an hour, connect a copper wire to her leg, and attach it to a ground, to discharge excess electricity. It was yet another interesting idea, but had little effect in her case.
Let me digress for a moment and share with you how I think as a practitioner:
I feel that there are three critical aspects to be considered as a starting point with each patient:
1. Thoughtfully determine the pathogenesis of the patient's condition. Trace backward step by step with the patient, to a time before he or she was sick, and then consider how to reset events differently.
(We traveled around the country and around the world considering so many options and causes eliminating one after the other, until we came to our present conclusion as to what caused the seizures to occur).
2. Determine the differential diagnosis. The great sage and medical genius Rebbe Nachman of Breslov teaches that internationally, inter-personally and internally, there can only be conflict or harmony. As with people or nations, illness is a lack of internal harmony in the organ systems, and the practitioner's task should be to encourage and promote that internal harmony.
(Every three days, I review Chana's symptoms, check her signs and take her pulses, adjusting and adapting her protocol accordingly)
3. Meet the patient where he or she is. Never have an agenda or prejudge. Always relate to the patient with pleasantness, being sensitive and adapting to whom the patient is. For example, not every patient is an appropriate candidate for acupuncture or Chinese herbs.
(In Chana's case. we tried over the years many different methods and approaches to acupuncture, and not only were they not beneficial, as every acupuncture protocol accelerated the onset of seizures in her case, but she has expressed that she feels she is being tortured when she is given acupuncture. In such a case, I must honor her and respect her boundaries.)
The next goal is to consider the whole person: emotionally, intellectually, spiritually and physically as well as considering possible contributing factors. Though they are magnificent therapeutic tools, I don't believe that Acupuncture and Chinese medicine alone can resolve all conditions. My experience has taught me that sometimes, a condition can manifest as a mineral or vitamin deficiency. Consider, for example, peripheral neuropathy is a common symptom of diabetes, but it can also result from a deficiency of Thiamine or B12, or even from Guillain-Barre Syndrome; Muscle spasms, insomnia, bone spurs, kidney and gall stones, and osteoporosis can all result from magnesium deficiency; Hypothyroidism, mental retardation, fibrocystic breast disease, and breast cancer can all result from iodine deficiency; Diabetes, Alzheimer's, Obesity, hypertension, depression, chronic fatigue, psoriasis and fibromyalgia can all result from a deficiency of Vitamin D3 (never take D2 which is known to cause toxicity and side effects); Bromhidrosis (body odor), Anosmia (poor sense of smell), Ageusia (poor sense of taste), hair loss, anorexia, and dermatitis all can result from zinc deficiency! Though some of these conditions might be successfully treated by acupuncture, moxa, herbs, diet, Qi gong or tuina, in my opinion the wise practitioner must always consider a biochemical component as well. (As a result, in Chana's case, with each dose of herbs she also takes a number of nutraceuticals based upon her signs and symptoms, but never without a clear indication of their benefit, leaving little to chance).
Let me add, as an aside, that neither Chana, nor any of my patient take multi-vitamins, to the best of my knowledge, for as importantly as it is to fill a deficiency, it is equally important to not toxify with an excess.
The third goal is to carefully consider six aspects of the patient's lifestyle: What and how they eat, proper hydration, thoughtful breathing, gentle stretching and walking, appropriate and adequate sleep, and nourishing the spirit and making oneself happy. In short, the patient must always be related to as a living and vibrant human being, and not a biomedical machine.
Which brings me to my wife, Chana. Western Biomedicine was not only unsuccessful in treating her, as she was not able to tolerate western pharmaceuticals, and almost died from a reaction to Lamictal. On the other hand, Chinese medicine was helpful in ameliorating some of her major accompanying symptoms, (such as constipation, urinary incontinence, less intense muscle spasms, and insomnia), and nourished her greatly between seizures, but was completely unsuccessful in stopping the seizures. . In addition, she has had 5 MRIs in as well as CTscans, PETscans and EEGs. No evidence of hot foci or scars( though the PETscan did pick up a cold focus) were seen, as usually is present with seizure disorders. A lumbar puncture (LP) was performed to rule out the presence of bacteria, virus or fungus in the cerebral spinal fluid. Negative.
But, after the LP 4 years ago, our neurologist suggested that we try a new anti-convulsant, Keppra (Levetiracetam), and though indeed there have been side-effects, such as greater irritability and weakness, and less focus, its benefits have been life-changing, and now, with the Chinese herbal decoction that she takes three times daily, the three cups of freshly made green smoothie, (see the article on my blog which speaks of green smoothies) and the regimen of nutraceuticals, seizures over the last couple of years have occurred between 40 and 110 days apart, often without any post-icatal aftershocks! Dosing has been very important, not just with the Keppra, but with every aspect of her regimen, and I constantly change the herbs in her decoctions based upon my readings of her pulses and other signs and symptoms. I am very hopeful that the long struggle is close to being over.
As I mentioned previously, all along, I considered all the various factors that could have contributed to her condition, in order to determine the pathogenesis and I am now absolutely convinced the seizure are iatrogenic (physician caused) in nature, resulting from a trauma suffered more than 50 years ago, and leaving a microscopic lesion, probably in her temporal lobe, which no scan has been able to pick up, and which set in motion the electrical imbalance that eventually caused the seizures. It seems to me, that such an intense unnatural trauma can only be counteracted by a Western pharmaceutical.
One other important point to always consider, based upon the principles of Jewish medicine is to both carefully avoid negative stimulation and gently and positively nourish. To that end, we have recently revisited the ketogenic diet (high fat, low carbs and moderate protein). Back in the early 90s we tried it with little success, which validated research which seemed to show it only effective in cases of pediatric epilepsy. I find it significant, though, that often Chana's seizures have occurred on the weekends. How do we eat differently then? Well, as orthodox Jews, we specifically eat delicious organic and whole grain home baked challah (bread) for all three meal on the Jewish Sabbath: Friday night, Saturday lunch and Saturday afternoon, as well as having a little grape juice mixed with wine. Could the higher ingestion of carbohydrates be precipitating greater electro-stimulation to her brain? We'll see, and I'll report my finding to you.
It is my hope that with time, as the seizure become less frequent, her accompanying tremors, spasms and irritability will dissipate, as the electricity is slowly discharged. As this happens, Chinese medicine and the other accompanying therapies will become, with G-d's help, even more effective, but even more than as medicines, as nutrients. But it will take time and patience.
seizure is the body's attempt to discharge electricity, often, unsuccessfully. Imagine if you will, a seizure every 25 days or so, followed within the next few days, by 5-8 post-ictal seizures, for more than 20 years. Do the math, and you will realize that the number of seizures that she has endured numbers well over 1000! Besides the obvious damage they have done, one other consequence has been a rawness, and an inability to concentrate. How could you expect someone who harbors and is distracted by so much electricity, to be able to focus, concentrate or engage in any relaxation technique? The cumulative sequelae of the seizures have just been too overwhelming for her to engage in any active relaxation--at least until recently.
I am pleased to report, though, that now, for the first time over an extended period of time, the seizures are becoming less frequent, and I am very hopeful that slowly and gradually she will be able to discharge the electricity and heal.
Anecdotally, I will tell you that some years ago, she was seen by late Dr. John Upledger, the developer of CranioSacral therapy. An interesting therapy that Dr. Upledger suggested was she daily, for an hour, connect a copper wire to her leg, and attach it to a ground, to discharge excess electricity. It was yet another interesting idea, but had little effect in her case.
Let me digress for a moment and share with you how I think as a practitioner:
I feel that there are three critical aspects to be considered as a starting point with each patient:
1. Thoughtfully determine the pathogenesis of the patient's condition. Trace backward step by step with the patient, to a time before he or she was sick, and then consider how to reset events differently.
(We traveled around the country and around the world considering so many options and causes eliminating one after the other, until we came to our present conclusion as to what caused the seizures to occur).
2. Determine the differential diagnosis. The great sage and medical genius Rebbe Nachman of Breslov teaches that internationally, inter-personally and internally, there can only be conflict or harmony. As with people or nations, illness is a lack of internal harmony in the organ systems, and the practitioner's task should be to encourage and promote that internal harmony.
(Every three days, I review Chana's symptoms, check her signs and take her pulses, adjusting and adapting her protocol accordingly)
3. Meet the patient where he or she is. Never have an agenda or prejudge. Always relate to the patient with pleasantness, being sensitive and adapting to whom the patient is. For example, not every patient is an appropriate candidate for acupuncture or Chinese herbs.
(In Chana's case. we tried over the years many different methods and approaches to acupuncture, and not only were they not beneficial, as every acupuncture protocol accelerated the onset of seizures in her case, but she has expressed that she feels she is being tortured when she is given acupuncture. In such a case, I must honor her and respect her boundaries.)
The next goal is to consider the whole person: emotionally, intellectually, spiritually and physically as well as considering possible contributing factors. Though they are magnificent therapeutic tools, I don't believe that Acupuncture and Chinese medicine alone can resolve all conditions. My experience has taught me that sometimes, a condition can manifest as a mineral or vitamin deficiency. Consider, for example, peripheral neuropathy is a common symptom of diabetes, but it can also result from a deficiency of Thiamine or B12, or even from Guillain-Barre Syndrome; Muscle spasms, insomnia, bone spurs, kidney and gall stones, and osteoporosis can all result from magnesium deficiency; Hypothyroidism, mental retardation, fibrocystic breast disease, and breast cancer can all result from iodine deficiency; Diabetes, Alzheimer's, Obesity, hypertension, depression, chronic fatigue, psoriasis and fibromyalgia can all result from a deficiency of Vitamin D3 (never take D2 which is known to cause toxicity and side effects); Bromhidrosis (body odor), Anosmia (poor sense of smell), Ageusia (poor sense of taste), hair loss, anorexia, and dermatitis all can result from zinc deficiency! Though some of these conditions might be successfully treated by acupuncture, moxa, herbs, diet, Qi gong or tuina, in my opinion the wise practitioner must always consider a biochemical component as well. (As a result, in Chana's case, with each dose of herbs she also takes a number of nutraceuticals based upon her signs and symptoms, but never without a clear indication of their benefit, leaving little to chance).
Let me add, as an aside, that neither Chana, nor any of my patient take multi-vitamins, to the best of my knowledge, for as importantly as it is to fill a deficiency, it is equally important to not toxify with an excess.
The third goal is to carefully consider six aspects of the patient's lifestyle: What and how they eat, proper hydration, thoughtful breathing, gentle stretching and walking, appropriate and adequate sleep, and nourishing the spirit and making oneself happy. In short, the patient must always be related to as a living and vibrant human being, and not a biomedical machine.
Which brings me to my wife, Chana. Western Biomedicine was not only unsuccessful in treating her, as she was not able to tolerate western pharmaceuticals, and almost died from a reaction to Lamictal. On the other hand, Chinese medicine was helpful in ameliorating some of her major accompanying symptoms, (such as constipation, urinary incontinence, less intense muscle spasms, and insomnia), and nourished her greatly between seizures, but was completely unsuccessful in stopping the seizures. . In addition, she has had 5 MRIs in as well as CTscans, PETscans and EEGs. No evidence of hot foci or scars( though the PETscan did pick up a cold focus) were seen, as usually is present with seizure disorders. A lumbar puncture (LP) was performed to rule out the presence of bacteria, virus or fungus in the cerebral spinal fluid. Negative.
But, after the LP 4 years ago, our neurologist suggested that we try a new anti-convulsant, Keppra (Levetiracetam), and though indeed there have been side-effects, such as greater irritability and weakness, and less focus, its benefits have been life-changing, and now, with the Chinese herbal decoction that she takes three times daily, the three cups of freshly made green smoothie, (see the article on my blog which speaks of green smoothies) and the regimen of nutraceuticals, seizures over the last couple of years have occurred between 40 and 110 days apart, often without any post-icatal aftershocks! Dosing has been very important, not just with the Keppra, but with every aspect of her regimen, and I constantly change the herbs in her decoctions based upon my readings of her pulses and other signs and symptoms. I am very hopeful that the long struggle is close to being over.
As I mentioned previously, all along, I considered all the various factors that could have contributed to her condition, in order to determine the pathogenesis and I am now absolutely convinced the seizure are iatrogenic (physician caused) in nature, resulting from a trauma suffered more than 50 years ago, and leaving a microscopic lesion, probably in her temporal lobe, which no scan has been able to pick up, and which set in motion the electrical imbalance that eventually caused the seizures. It seems to me, that such an intense unnatural trauma can only be counteracted by a Western pharmaceutical.
One other important point to always consider, based upon the principles of Jewish medicine is to both carefully avoid negative stimulation and gently and positively nourish. To that end, we have recently revisited the ketogenic diet (high fat, low carbs and moderate protein). Back in the early 90s we tried it with little success, which validated research which seemed to show it only effective in cases of pediatric epilepsy. I find it significant, though, that often Chana's seizures have occurred on the weekends. How do we eat differently then? Well, as orthodox Jews, we specifically eat delicious organic and whole grain home baked challah (bread) for all three meal on the Jewish Sabbath: Friday night, Saturday lunch and Saturday afternoon, as well as having a little grape juice mixed with wine. Could the higher ingestion of carbohydrates be precipitating greater electro-stimulation to her brain? We'll see, and I'll report my finding to you.
It is my hope that with time, as the seizure become less frequent, her accompanying tremors, spasms and irritability will dissipate, as the electricity is slowly discharged. As this happens, Chinese medicine and the other accompanying therapies will become, with G-d's help, even more effective, but even more than as medicines, as nutrients. But it will take time and patience.
Monday, March 4, 2013
The Jewish Model of Healing
I believe that it is a serious flaw in judgment to consider simply amelioration of symptoms to be healing. Unfortunately, this is precisely the goal of many allopathic physicians (biomedical and naturopathic): to consider pain relief as therapeutic success. Among the many lessons that we can learn from the wisdom of the ancients is the importance of treating the whole person, body, spirit, mind and emotions, and that if one aspect remains out of balance, invariably the physician's "success" with the patient will only be temporary. This is the problem with using wonderful modern technological devices such as Scenar or effective therapies such as EFT. Used independently they indeed do relieve pain. But the problem lies when they are viewed as an end in and of themselves, discouraging the physician and patient alike to look deeper in order to determine what the pathogenesis of that pain might be and what other manifestations might be underlying. The great Chassidic master, Rabbi Dov Ber of Mezeritch substantiates this idea when he says: "If one has a small hole in his body, he has a big hole in his soul." The point is that as in the Jewish tradition, the great masters of Chinese medicine also recognized the indivisibility of the whole person, as reflected in their writings of theory and therapeutics.
This solid foundation requires two paradoxical approaches from us: On the one hand, we need to view ourselves as the torchbearers of a brilliant, deep and integrated medical and philosophical tradition. As such, it is incumbent upon us to delve as deeply as we can into ancient sources, learning from masters throughout the centuries how to understand these texts, and how to clinically apply that wisdom to our practices. On the other hand, we need to appreciate the gift that modern technological tools offer us: to confirm, reinforce and expedite diagnosis and treatment.
One final thought I'd like to share: We find in Jewish Talmudic, Midrashic and medieval texts many therapeutic healings, prescriptions and remedies. Yet, for the most part, these medical practices are ignored. Why, one should ask, is this wealth of medical tradition at best, just glossed over? It is from the great legal commentator, Rabbi Akiva Eiger, who lived 200 years ago, that we find the answer. Rabbi Akiva Eiger ruled that one may not rely on these ancient healings, for both man and nature have changed, and as such, those healings no longer work!
Yet, the observant Jewish student of Chinese Medical history of course finds this ruling perplexing, for how can one contend that ancient Jewish medicinal cures referred to in texts written between 2000 to 3000 years ago no longer work, whereas we know that medicine written about, in the far East, during the same period, clearly does? Are not the therapeutics as valid today as they were when the Nei Jing and the Shang Han Lun were written?! How can we reconcile , the wisdom and enormous erudition of the Jewish sages in light of this inconsistency?
Perhaps, though, we can consider this approach: The Chinese written tradition consists of characters or pictograms which are understood the same throughout the far east, so that a reader in Mongolia, though speaking a completely different language, will be able to read a text from Southeast China, Japan, Korea or Vietnam. Within the Jewish tradition, on the other hand, substances have changed names over time. For example, the great Jewish Egyptian physician and scholar Maimonides uses a term which today means cucumber to describe a melon, in his Laws of Temperaments, written 900 years ago. As such, I would humbly suggest that neither man nor nature at their roots have changed, (although the potency and strength of each have certainly diminished from pollution and improper use), but that our understanding of substances found in ancient Jewish texts is not always correct.
It is the approach of Jewish tradition to view the individual as a reflection of society as a whole. We Jews, despite having lived in exile from our land for nearly 2000 years, have learned what it takes to survive. Yet from a larger perspective, mystical Judaism views this exile as symptomatic of spiritual illness. We believe that our redemption from exile has been delayed by the imbalances in our lives. May we therefore merit a time soon, when ancient knowledge will again be readily available, and at that time, the role of doctors will be, as the great sage and physician, Nachmanides tells us, that of educators, teaching us how to maintain vibrant health and balance, both in body and soul rather than treating illness.
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
The State of Chinese Medicine in America and the fine art of healing
As we prepare to hear how our president views the state of the Union, I would like to share my own detailed view on the state of the profession of Chinese medicine in America, as well as healing in general. I warn you though, some of what you read (if you are a student or practitioner of TCM or acupuncture) you might not be comfortable with.
THE STATE OF CHINESE MEDICAL EDUCATION IN AMERICA
I see Chinese Medicine in America as analogous to a fairly young tree whose roots are not all that deep or strong and which has been growing crooked (xie). Nonetheless, the soil in which it finds itself is rich, nutritious, deep, fertile, and healthy, although it is being contaminated even as we speak with pollutants.
THE STATE OF CHINESE MEDICAL EDUCATION IN AMERICA
I see Chinese Medicine in America as analogous to a fairly young tree whose roots are not all that deep or strong and which has been growing crooked (xie). Nonetheless, the soil in which it finds itself is rich, nutritious, deep, fertile, and healthy, although it is being contaminated even as we speak with pollutants.
That tree needs to be replanted and tended so that it can grow straight and tall. The soil is good and the tree is quite healthy, but we must make the nutrients more accessible and we must not allow the toxification to continue.
Before I translate what all this means, I want to look back for a moment: There is a wonderful historical novel called "The Physician" by Noah Gordon, in which the great Persian physician, Ibn Sina (or the anglicized Avicenna), is introduced as the "prince of physicians," who establishes the first formal medical school, The Madrassas, in Isfahan. To become a physician in the madrassas, one needed to be an expert in surgery, herbalogy, theology, jurisprudence, languages and philosophy, among other subjects. Ibn Sina insisted upon a very high level and breadth of scholarship, skill, and experience in order to qualify as a physician, and the finest doctors in the world were his students and graduates. I believe that this same model of excellence needs to be applied to our doctors and doctors to be.
Translation and transition to a new model:
1. Current licensees: those who have graduated and are licensed should maintain their status quo but should also be required to take an increased amount of Continuing Education Units (CEU's).
2. Schools: must raise their standards of grades and admissions. It is much to easy to get into Oriental Medical School Master's programs, and grades of C or D should not be acceptable and passing. Students that have difficulty but who are really motivated need to retake courses until they master the material. Forget attrition--start with quality, require a Bachelor's degree, carefully evaluating undergraduate grades, more thoroughly interviewing candidates and considering more carefully their written and oral communication skills.
3. Master's programs: The course of study must be more rigorous and students should not be allowed to graduate without demonstrating their practical and technical skills-- again, they need to do well in order to be allowed to graduate. If this means that the course of study is extended, then so be it, but the key must be proficiency not hours of time spent.
4. Mentorships: are a sorely needed priority for our students. I would love to take a student under my wing, be available for him, teach him, answer questions that he has from his studies and have him challenge me. In my view this should not be just a nice option, but rather the sunlight without which the tree cannot flourish.
5. Autonomy: We need to make a massive effort to prove our efficacy as a profession and enforce ourselves just like the MDs and Chiropractors do. It is absurd that individuals and agencies that know next to nothing about what we do have been placed in governing and enforcing positions. Our profession has been poisoned by mediocrity. Our governance and enforcement should not be directly linked together with the FDA and DEA, because we use and treat food and medicinal substances differently than MDs. Though there does need to be enforcement, instead there needs to be subdivisions of these agencies in which standards are high, and officers are knowledgeable in what we do and what we use, and therefore wise as to what real abuses are. Yes, there are problematic substances in our prarmacopeia, but it is absurd that so many important substances and useful substances are not available to us because of ignorance as to how we have been educated to use them. Having our own divisions would resolve this problem.
Again, we are young, vibrant and find ourselves in flourishing terrain. Our tree has grown crooked and yes, wild, because it was not attended to properly, (and no, wildcrafted is not always better!).
I really believe that by raising the bar, we can affect an enormous change in the success of our profession. I would suggest that as with Ibn Sina, students need to get much more practical tutelage and experience. They need to get a much stronger foundation both relative to the past and to the present, by being taught a much broader survey of classics. They also need to take more than just one course in Chinese medical language in order to be able to open Chinese medical journals to continue learning cutting edge developments in our profession internationally, and they need to learn to be much more competent in Western medical diagnosis and how to use WELL the tools that Western physicians use. Ultimately, I think that if didactic course studies were more rigorous and if clinical training was more interactive and challenging we would produce graduates who had greater confidence in their knowledge and greater competence in their abilities. I am absolutely certain that with this greater proficiency, as well as going into the world guided by mentor: a successful and experienced senior colleague, there is just no way that someone couldn't make a good living doing what we do, as long as they have drive and desire to make it.
We have so many brilliant colleagues. Just as the process is thorough and detailed in writing and developing good educational programs, why can't a "constitutional congress" of sorts convene in order for us to reclaim our profession? And to where should we look to for our model? Perhaps we can get an idea by looking backward.
Tuesday, January 22, 2013
Additional guidelines concerning food and water
As I've said on many occasions, by carefully nurturing nine areas of our lives, we are able to promote balance, health and longevity. Those nine areas are the way we eat, the way we hydrate ourselves, the way we breathe, the way we stretch and move our bodies, the way that we sleep, the way we properly regulate our elimination, maintaining proper hygiene, our ability to accept when things don't go our way, and the way we nurture our souls bringing the joy that comes with acquiring knowledge.
Briefly, I want to share with you some additional important ways reflect upon how we eat, and how to properly hydrating ourselves.
ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS ABOUT EATING:
One of the ten principles of Jewish medicine is "Sur Me'ra, va'ase Tov"(turn away from evil and do good). From this principle we learn that as important as healthy eating is, even more important is what NOT to eat!
As I wrote in my blog article entitled:
"8 guidelines for guaranteed digestive health, healing and (if desired) weight loss!"
If one sincerely will follow the guidelines on how and how not to eat, I guarantee that if they want to, they will lose 2 lbs of fat (the right kind of weight loss, not water or muscle!) weekly, and even if they do not want to lose weight, they will heal their digestive tract.
I want to add two simple memory aids that will complement what is written in that article: avoid the five whites, and avoid the 5 Cs.: White flour, white sugar, ALL dairy products, white potatoes (without the skin) and processed white rice, as well as Corn, cold foods, carbonation, coffee and chocolate. Though some of these are obvious, others you might find difficult to understand, so feel free to contact me should you need explanation.
THE BODY AS A RIVER:
Human beings are 70% water, and because of its enormous influence, the body can easily become get out of balance and become dehydrated. Those of you who are patients of mine know that as a confirmational tool, I use Applied Kinesiology (AK) in determining food sensitivities or therapeutic formulas, although I do not diagnose with AK,as there are halachic problems doing so, according the the great scholar, decisor and kabbalist, Rabbi Yitzchok Meir Morganstern. One of the problems and criticisms of AK is the question of its accuracy and consistency. What I have found through experience, though, is that if a patient is properly hydrated, and the fluid is properly distributed throughout his body, then the degree of accuracy dramatically increases. The problem is that virtually all patients ARE dehydrated!
To initially determine if a patient is dehydrated. I have the patient stand in front of me, holding in his left hand, his arm at his side, a bottle of Xiao Yao Wan (a medicine that I have found to be universally non-reactive,). He pronates and extends his right hand focusing on extending it, while not leaning his body, and not allowing his elbow to bend. Also, specifically the patient is told to not resist upward. Light pressure is applied to the forearm at the olecranon crease and if the patient is properly hydrated, then the arm will remain strong and he'll be able to easily resist without the elbow bending. If he is dehydrated or has to urinate, though, he will not be able to resist gentle downward pressure. In that the case, then first, he needs to urinate. Then, he needs to drink water, sometimes as much as a pint or more, until the arm is strong enough to resist. But sometimes, even if properly hydrated, the arm strength is still weak. This indicates that the body's fluid is not being distributed properly. To correct this, I have the patient do seven Qi Gong exercises, which should resolve the distribution problem, after which I should be able to accurately check his foods and medicines. here are the seven Qi Gong exercises, that I recommend doing. If you ever feel dehydrated and fatigued, first drink adequate water and then invest five minutes to do these exercises. You will feel the difference, I guarantee it!
1. Give yourself 20 karate chops bringing together the two hypothenar eminences (the soft part of the outside of both hands, between the pinky and the wrist).
2. With the second and third fingers of your dominant hand make 20 clockwise circles between the two nipples of the chest.
3. 20 times circumscribe the breasts, starting with your dominant hand on top of the other hand, placing them on the zyphoid process of the sternum, at the bottom of the middle of the rib cage, then going up, hands together to your collar bone, and around the breasts, completing a cycle by bringing the hands back together.
4, Make 20 small clockwise circles from the point three inches below the umbilicus
5. Find the spot halfway between the umbilicus and the illiac crest (the hip bone) on both sides. It should be tender. On both sides, make 20 simultaneous circles inward.
6. Hyperflex your wrist and place your radial styloid (the wrist bone on the thumb side) of both wrists in the small of your back, and make 20 circles in an outward direction.
7. After completing the six Qi Gong exercises, spank yourself twenty time going up and down from the small of your back to you buttocks.
Briefly, I want to share with you some additional important ways reflect upon how we eat, and how to properly hydrating ourselves.
ADDITIONAL THOUGHTS ABOUT EATING:
One of the ten principles of Jewish medicine is "Sur Me'ra, va'ase Tov"(turn away from evil and do good). From this principle we learn that as important as healthy eating is, even more important is what NOT to eat!
As I wrote in my blog article entitled:
"8 guidelines for guaranteed digestive health, healing and (if desired) weight loss!"
If one sincerely will follow the guidelines on how and how not to eat, I guarantee that if they want to, they will lose 2 lbs of fat (the right kind of weight loss, not water or muscle!) weekly, and even if they do not want to lose weight, they will heal their digestive tract.
I want to add two simple memory aids that will complement what is written in that article: avoid the five whites, and avoid the 5 Cs.: White flour, white sugar, ALL dairy products, white potatoes (without the skin) and processed white rice, as well as Corn, cold foods, carbonation, coffee and chocolate. Though some of these are obvious, others you might find difficult to understand, so feel free to contact me should you need explanation.
THE BODY AS A RIVER:
Human beings are 70% water, and because of its enormous influence, the body can easily become get out of balance and become dehydrated. Those of you who are patients of mine know that as a confirmational tool, I use Applied Kinesiology (AK) in determining food sensitivities or therapeutic formulas, although I do not diagnose with AK,as there are halachic problems doing so, according the the great scholar, decisor and kabbalist, Rabbi Yitzchok Meir Morganstern. One of the problems and criticisms of AK is the question of its accuracy and consistency. What I have found through experience, though, is that if a patient is properly hydrated, and the fluid is properly distributed throughout his body, then the degree of accuracy dramatically increases. The problem is that virtually all patients ARE dehydrated!
To initially determine if a patient is dehydrated. I have the patient stand in front of me, holding in his left hand, his arm at his side, a bottle of Xiao Yao Wan (a medicine that I have found to be universally non-reactive,). He pronates and extends his right hand focusing on extending it, while not leaning his body, and not allowing his elbow to bend. Also, specifically the patient is told to not resist upward. Light pressure is applied to the forearm at the olecranon crease and if the patient is properly hydrated, then the arm will remain strong and he'll be able to easily resist without the elbow bending. If he is dehydrated or has to urinate, though, he will not be able to resist gentle downward pressure. In that the case, then first, he needs to urinate. Then, he needs to drink water, sometimes as much as a pint or more, until the arm is strong enough to resist. But sometimes, even if properly hydrated, the arm strength is still weak. This indicates that the body's fluid is not being distributed properly. To correct this, I have the patient do seven Qi Gong exercises, which should resolve the distribution problem, after which I should be able to accurately check his foods and medicines. here are the seven Qi Gong exercises, that I recommend doing. If you ever feel dehydrated and fatigued, first drink adequate water and then invest five minutes to do these exercises. You will feel the difference, I guarantee it!
1. Give yourself 20 karate chops bringing together the two hypothenar eminences (the soft part of the outside of both hands, between the pinky and the wrist).
2. With the second and third fingers of your dominant hand make 20 clockwise circles between the two nipples of the chest.
3. 20 times circumscribe the breasts, starting with your dominant hand on top of the other hand, placing them on the zyphoid process of the sternum, at the bottom of the middle of the rib cage, then going up, hands together to your collar bone, and around the breasts, completing a cycle by bringing the hands back together.
4, Make 20 small clockwise circles from the point three inches below the umbilicus
5. Find the spot halfway between the umbilicus and the illiac crest (the hip bone) on both sides. It should be tender. On both sides, make 20 simultaneous circles inward.
6. Hyperflex your wrist and place your radial styloid (the wrist bone on the thumb side) of both wrists in the small of your back, and make 20 circles in an outward direction.
7. After completing the six Qi Gong exercises, spank yourself twenty time going up and down from the small of your back to you buttocks.
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